Anyway, the reason why I'm pointing all this out
In the below blog is, based on several hints from a lot of people, which I didn't pick up on at first, but am finally starting to, I am wondering if it is possible maybe some people at Harvard want to smear me by asserting that it was Mr Gomes I always had the problem with, rather than Murray Somerville. Of course, that makes sense too because for them to demand I go "mediate" with an abuser is outrageous so they'd want to cover it up by pretending they had asked me to apologize to and/or meet with Gomes, and I refused to and THAT'S what it was all about. And, if that's what they wanted to do, then yes it would make sense they'd fabricate fake emails between me and Murray that would make it look like I had met with Murray at a time when, actually, the big sticking point was I was so scared of him I wouldn't meet with him, I wanted to meet with others.
On top of it, Gomes was black, did they want to make it into a political correctness race thing? Except, that's preposterous -- or what is more obvious is how they systematically discouraged me from ever getting to know him, and were very controlling about it too, and were so good at discouraging me from getting to know him that there were all sorts of things I didn't know about him, after several years there, which were shocking to learn. He was a gay Republican who thought out of the box politically (a lot the way I do) and Dan Sanks was his lover -- I had no clue about any of that until four years after I was a freshman. But I did know all about his peculiar membership in the mayflower society along with his preppy accent being fake and his mother speaking normal English. Meanwhile, everything they did can be seen as a pre-meditated effort to have Murray Somerville terrorize me, then have them provoke me into insulting Gomes, and then they tell me only that Murray is offended (at my complaints about his threats and other severely terrorizing wrong-doing) and that I have to meet Murray and placate Murray, something I knew I couldn't do because of how ceding to any of Murray's demands always resulted in me having horrible experiences which severely traumatized me, so I felt compelled to stay away from him in order to avoid trouble.
Meanwhile, of course Peter Gomes could not breath a word about being "insulted" - nor could anyone else -- lest I end up meeting with him. Or trying to, and he's obligated to maintain his reputation within the church by being magnanimous enough to offer to talk to me, which is what I talked all along. Meanwhile, if they try to say it's a racial thing, I have to point out, I was the only organ student who was friendly with Eric the custodian, who was black, and also I started to befriend Archie Epps, after the big problem started, spoke with him once and really thought he was nice, and next time I tried to speak with him, Phillip Bean tried to tell me I couldn't (without even asking Archie Epps whether he was willing to speak with me) and I was so upset about that I got my mother to go to University Hall with me and object, and I think Phillip Bean ended up being very nice and saying it was ok for me to meet with Archie Epps after all. Which I would have started doing regularly (I later on would regularly visit Sandy Selesky and Eric, the custodian from the gym), except they suddenly retired Archie Epps and that was the only reason I ended up never speaking with him.
And, of course, it is interesting how Peter Gomes and Eric the Custodian both die suddenly, right after I hire an attorney. [Added later: September 12, 2015: Interestingly enough, one thing I do remember, after my failed efforts to try to try to talk to Archie Epps again was, his sudden retirement was also accompanied by subsequent medical problems so bad, his wife had to donate him a kidney. Which may be a coincidence. And here is where harassment and constant accusations that I'm a conspiracy theorist leave me intimidated and hesitant to say a few things that have been on my mind, or which I've been "covering up," shall I say, but it IS true that, for quite some time, I have been under the impression, based on rumors heard through the grapevine whose credibility, of course, will always be ambiguous, that Peter Gomes' death was conveniently timed and hastened by a corrupt medical system. Which is, let me just say, kind of interesting.]
And, to be honest, I always liked Peter Gomes and always got along with him perfectly, sort of like he was the only person at Memorial Church who was decent and not like the others, sort of honorable unlike all of the others. So it makes sense I'd be upset and say something after his secretary very nastily refused to let me meet with him -- in hopes he'd hear about it finally and wonder what was going on and want to intervene and I'd get a chance to discuss it with him.
I'll have to copy and paste it eventually but need to dig up more background info on some other issues I also mentioned in that letter first.
Which I can do later.