and Gomes' secretary who refused to let me speak to him
She was especially nasty about it, sort of like deliberately provocative.
OK now I see it. They were deliberately manipulating me.
As for Gomes, I am reminded of this TV program someone recently shared about Gomes where he was talking about his recent book "the scandalous gospel of Jesus," and the TV host went and told him, if he started out as Catholic, then he is nothing but a sheep and they tell him what to do and he does it, and he said "yes."
See I really wonder whether he is a bad person like they all said. I do know one thing, nobody breathed a word about him to me while I was at Memorial Church. Nobody introduced him to me, except for my mother of all people which was after I played the organ for a service and would talk to him during refreshments.
But I knew nothing about him, I didn't even know he was gay, I did not know Daniel Sanks was his lover until Spring of 1998. I did not know he was well known in any way. I knew nothing about his politics. All I heard about was how his mother speaks normal English and his preppy accent was fake, how he was a very bizarre individual who was a member of the mayflower society, e.g., descendants of people who came over here on the mayflower, which they thought was so ridiculous and funny, and remarked on how this "old dowager asked him so did you come over on the mayflower" and he responded "no I came over on a different kind of ship." (Direct quote: Murray Somerville.)
Then, after I leave Harvard, all I hear from the likes of Christopher Thorpe is how intensely disliked Peter Gomes was at Harvard, and what a horrible person he was, all he cares about is talking with people who have money.
What I wonder about him is, was he really a bad person, or was he just surrounded by and heavily controlled by a bunch of white gays and lesbians (all of whom were the ones who behaved so atrociously towards me) in a similar manner to how many performers who are gifted are used, manipulated, and controlled by "managers?" Given the high profile nature of some of the businesses who seemed to be using this situation in order to eventually exploit me, I'd have to say this wasn't really him, as some people have tried to tell me.
I mean, come on, these people were all using me. Why weren't they using him as well?
[Added November 14, 2015. I totally forgot it, but another sign of the manner in which I was kept utterly ignorant about everything at Memorial Church, all so I could muddle through and not understand ANY of the social dynamics there was, regarding Daniel Sanks, Gomes' lover. I had no clue Gomes was gay. Well maybe I heard once or twice. But I had no clue Daniel Sanks was his lover until Spring of 1998, I accidentally try to visit Gomes to try to complain about Dan Sanks, I ring his door bell, Dan Sanks answers, I ask where Gomes is, he isn't there, and then I ask Dan Sanks "What are you doing here?" and he says "I live here." And I was shocked. This was after five years at Harvard -- just goes to show how badly I was socially ostracized, controlled, and shunned there, if I didn't know even that.
However, I should also point out, it isn't like I didn't have some amount of "insight" as to their "relationship" or whatever you want to call it. When speaking to Danny Forger and other Harvard Individuals, I always referred to Daniel Sanks as "Director of Finance" and none of them corrected me. Because what I noticed about him was, he was very controlling, and obsessed with money. He and Nancy Granert would once a year work together at her desk doing the "accounting" -- which wasn't exactly like what you would expect to see at Harvard. She always had tons of $20 dollar bills in her right drawer, probably several thousands of dollars worth, and when they were "doing the accounting" at her office, they'd all piled up on the top of her desk. And what I am writing here is not a hint about something else. It's literally true.]