Damian M. Schloming ideas and information

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This website is to allow me to present intelligibly my thoughts and insights on various social, political, historical and even scientific issues I've been studying in the past two years. 

Some of which I have background knowledge of due to having been involved with and interested in various political movements many years ago. 

My political viewpoint leans towards libertarian, except that I am not completely happy with the way some of them think. Libertarians want limited government and civil liberties. As a matter of principle, that is excellent. But then libertarians seem to suffer from this ingrained bias of Western Culture that you can somehow intellectually decide that government "should be" a certain way and then the perfect society can then be achieved by some legislative body sitting down and crafting some written rule decreeing that that is how society is to be from now on.

 

Actually, I think government and the larger society it is embedded in is more like some kind of living beast that you can train or that can morph in one direction or another, but it can't be so easily manipulated or changed as we think. Written rules don't have the exact effect they literally intend, but instead enforcement of the rules and all sorts of other considerations regarding government bureaucracies results in all sorts of ripple effects or unintended consequences. As a result, the most free society does not necessarily result from the one with the nicest and most free sounding written constitution or constitutional rights guaranteeing liberty. A very good example of this issue is the liberal Warren Court expanding all sorts of fifth amendment procedural and technical criminal protections for defendants. Liberals saying they want to do this might be arguing this is to help the poor. The opposite is the truth. This is to help defense attorneys, and why is that a bad thing? Because criminal procedures and technicalities of the liberal Warren Court only resulted in defendants having protection IF they could hire an expensive enough attorney to do a good enough job PRESSING them. Public defenders are part of the corrupt court system, they deliberately do a bad job so as to make sure well heeled defendants find it worth their while to pay extra. Huge sentences ALSO give well heeled defendants more incentive to pay extra. Thus, defense attorneys representing rich criminal defendants have a vested interest in maintaining the strict sentencing policies responsible for Mass Incarceration. Furthermore, there was a law school bubble which burst, and now law schools are doing poorly because lawyers are not finding it worth their while to spend so much money on a law degree. Fact of the matter is, those liberal Warren Court protections indirectly increased legal fees for defense attorneys, thereby contributing to the upward pressure on college tuition and law school tuition, simply because the amount of money attorneys could make from a law degree made it more worthwhile. 

It also is true that the regulatory state increased in many other ways, increasing demand for attorneys in other spheres besides the criminal justice system. But I am going to talk about the criminal justice system here for now to use it as an example.

This is just one example showing how a policy that, examined in the most superficial way you think it's designed to help criminal defendants overall in the long run has the exact opposite effect. Because these protections are ones that only can be accessed by those with the money to pay for top dollar attorneys. And, it isn't always necessarily related to the facts of the case. The attorney usually has an incestuous relationship with everyone else in the court system, so much so that basically if you pay the right attorney enough money, you will get off because he is friends with all the judges and prosecutors, and parole officers, etc.

And for me to say that could lead to others thinking it is rather awful to have a court system so incestuously corrupt. Except, these are all nice people who know each other and court systems have ALWAYS been like this, more or less. And they always will be this way. Government is incapable of being perfect. Understanding its inherent imperfections such as this are necessary when it comes to avoiding passing laws which interact with such a culture in a way to produce very bad outcomes.

 

After all, we have always had government and, for some reason, it would appear if we always have had it, that is because we need it. The inner workings of government are so awful, you discover after you observe it, it can easily lead many to think we should just abolish it. But, given that that is impossible, the best alternative is to understand it as inherently flawed, and realistically think of how to make things "the least bad."

This is what I have thought for a long time, yet only recently have I stumbled across some law professors who subscribe to a movement called "legal realism." It turns out they think exactly the way I do, and see the same flaws in our society (or in the thinking of popular culture which leads to wrong-headed policies in our legal system) that I see.

Oddly enough, they seem to describe themselves as leftists yet they are not the kind of ordinary mainstream leftist most people would understand to be "of the left." Which is strange because I never would have thought of myself as a liberal -- but not a conservative either. But maybe this is because of certain strands of liberalism I have been exposed to which are quite awful. 

In any case, why categorize oneself? As I study and learn more about society, I like to share various insights and not limit myself to any one "box" or "category" that I pigeonhole myself into.

It all began at Harvard, of course

August 28, 2015  /  Damian Schloming

And one thing that was interesting about the way things worked is, it all confirms everything rape activists say about how rape victims are dismissed and retaliated against, only to be honest, in a way it's worse than how they portray it. Colleges want victims to complain, because the complaint becomes, well, becomes the "blackmail leverage" that administrations can then use to encourage the kind of criminal behavior against the victim subsequent to the rape that various individuals would probably be hesitant to engage in on their own. However, it's all about manipulating certain perpetrator types down a path of increasingly severe criminality, so they increasingly become dependent on a system that guarantees them absolution for their increasingly severe and even sociopathic crimes, provided they toe the line in every way thinkable and be "good soldiers" and not object to the wrong doing of others and not rat anyone out. 

Thus, you can see I was subjected to horrible amounts of bullying -- this was all pre-meditated -- and then individuals would do things that were something that was sort of like a "hook." It was obviously wrong enough so I felt I was justified in complaining -- in writing. And Murray Somerville literally said to me "you made a mistake. bad things are going to happen to you now," and I asked "what bad things?" and he said "oh I don't know yet. Other people are going to carry them out."

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In any case, here is a paper trail which to be honest I have mentioned previously on A Voice For Men, which tends to implicate Seth Moulton as responsible for some kind of scheme with regard to me, except he was doing this on behalf of Murray Somerville. 

OK let me explain. Notice how the December 3 concert which I was thinking of possibly playing had not be filled and instead was listed as "TBA" on the program? Notice how I write an email saying I will play it after all, and Seth goes and tells me it was a misunderstanding and the Harvard Organ Society students were always going to play that concert? Then he changes his tune? Actually, the Harvard Organ Society concert had ALWAYS been scheduled for December 10, and previous programs which I had saved (including Nancy Granert's last concert there) listed the organ society concert always as having been on December 10. So they had never planned for it to be on the 3rd and Seth was lying to me, and that was one reason when I chickened out after his nasty email and said I'd rather not play after all, and let the organ society play on the 3rd as planned, they couldn't do that because it had never been planned for then in the first place. 

Except, hold on a minute, I can't paste this now. 

the problem is, i read a part of it and am shocked at the ambiguous nature of it, which i had no clue about at the time. e.g., i mention how i left murray somerville's office and was so scared i had a surge of adrenaline and left the office with violently shaking hands. of course, what i meant was i was scared and they were shaking with anxiety but now i realize it's ambiguous and looks like i could have left angry and shaking my fists -- except i wouldn't have done so because i was always very protective of my hands and wrists because of the way i play the organ and i am not going to ever get into any physical fights. 

what i do, and what i have done in the past in situations -- which I have gotten in -- where drunk college kids wanted to gay bash me was use my eyes and get this wild eyed look, behave a bit erratically, and stare them down, which always worked. Because, of course, it was always very important never to get into any situation where my hands might possibly be injured. 

but one problem I had at this time at Harvard was I did not know English fully, and one interesting thing is I do remember Lynn Robinson (someone I consulted once when at Harvard) "predicting" that I'd at some point talk to this woman who also talked to my parents, and she would "help me figure out how to articulate" things. And that woman was Malena and, yes, it was only after I started talking to Malena that she kind of taught me proper English so I knew how to fully articulate myself, whereas before, I really truly did not fully know English. `

In which case, I start to wonder, ok something was wrong not only with the students from across the hallway who sexually harassed me but also with the allegedly nicer students from wigglesworth who befriended me and who knew the students from across the hallway who caused me all this trouble -- yet, if they befriended me, sort of, why didn't I have any conversations with them that helped me learn proper english and why was it that i never completely spoke English properly or had full confidence that I knew how to articulate myself so that what I meant was what I was really communicating, until I started working with Malena? 

This parallels the fact that, tons and tons of times when I was at Harvard, students I'd talk to would tell me I spoke with an accent and ask me where I was from, assuming that I was from a foreign country and didn't speak English as my first language. Also, no native born American students ever behaved warmly to me but, instead, it was kind of like they were very standoffish and shunned me, or were minimally polite and formal, while the only students who really had normal conversations with me that were more intimate and close and warm were international students. 

Oh wait, what was also interesting was how, hold on let me see. When I was in Germany, I had this experience where I was date rape drugged and then woke up with terrible amnesia, having totally forgotten that I had ever traveled to Germany and I forgot even what my parents' names were and my own name. Which is odd because other experiences I had with ryphenol did not have such a powerful effect on me in the least. Not only that but, when I was in Germany, I noticed something quite interesting. And that was that I started to speak English using German Word Order, the exact same way they all did. 

And then when I got back, I thought I spoke English right -- but when I look, I see I worded things, oh I think I was using German Word order here. And I didn't even know it. I had forgotten, at that time, that the English meaning of the sentences I wrote was ambiguous. And now when I reread them, I am shocked that I didn't know it at that time. 

They did something more to me than just date rape drug me with ryphenol. They must have done some kind of electric shock therapy or something to my brain. Which messed up my language centers but I didn't know it.

Here my brother mentions it as well. What's weird was I totally didn't know how messed up I was then. 

 

http://www.pbase.com/damian1974/image/161138305

 

Except I know how because I didn't word it right and I didn't know I didn't word it right. I literally had no clue at the time that what I wrote could have meant anything other than that I my hands were shaking, violently, in fear. E.g., shivering from anxiety. 

I do remember that I started speaking English exactly the way they did. The way they'd talk, it was like they would almost sing. And I ended up imitating them exactly. What was weird was, a man from West Germany invited me to stay at his house, and he spoke English like all the East Germans did, in a singing way, but his parents spoke perfectly normal English. Which means, ok i wonder if they were deliberately speaking English with an alternative word order, just for me. and if i had had anmesia or something that caused amnesia or damage to language centers, it's possible that this would have caused me to unwittingly relearn english improperly.

This is so shocking. 

 

Here let me paste what I wrote in one email: 

 

"He has displayed the most eggregious and shocking aggressive interpersonal behavior towards me when we are alone together and he can "get away with it." With older and more prominent people, he will control himself better,

but there have been times when I have come out of meetings with him with my hands literally shaking. " 

 

But there is another email I wrote which was even worse, so bad I initially thought some hacker must have rewrote it but, after thinking about it for awhile, I remembered, no I really did write this. I remember writing "surge of adrenaline" and "violently shaking hands." 

And here I wrote to Samuel Hayes:

 

"Maybe I am all wrong about this, but if I am paranoid, it is because of the terrible threats he has made against me when not in the presence of others, as well as the few instances in which he has simply "lost-it" and behaved in such a manner that I literally feared for my safety and got an adreneline surge so strong that I walked out of his office with violently shaking hands."

 

The English here is, I have to say, all weird, but this reminds me exactly of the way those East Germans talked, including how they used the wrong word order, thus instead of saying "hands shaking violently" I said "violently shaking hands." Also, I shouldn't have used the word "violent" to describe how they were shaking. i was afraid, not angry. what i meant was 'hands shaking in fear.' so i somehow substituted the wrong word, without fully realizing it, and used the wrong word order as well, without having the slightest clue it could be misinterpreted. 

 

I wonder if they did something to me in Germany more than date rape drug me. Either that or this is an example of the email record being altered via computer hacker so as to change the meaning slightly. 

 

 

 

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