One thing I left out - scary

I wrote the following below:

"However, around this time I had been convinced -- by a few untrustworthy others, one of whom happened to include this Comp Sci student who worked for microsoft -- that the only way to handle things was to "make a deal" to cover things up, or to HALF cover things up. Cover some things up, so some people are held accountable for committing crimes against me (which couldn't be covered up) but then a cover story is floated which preserves Harvard's reputation, and the reputation of other high profile players."

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This was Christopher Thorpe. Now as for things he said, first of all he was in touch with Jordan Tigani all along. Then at one point he told me he was working in Argentina, which he said was beautiful but very very very corrupt. He also mentions, after I started confiding to him that (as other people told me) my problems had something to do with the mafia, that his parents were "well meaning" in some sense so, as a result, he was "now quite powerful." 

He was also the one responsible for prompting me to forward enough of my documentation to Harvard so -- well I think they used it as blackmail for their fund raising campaign and I can see how they would have been very eager to have all that dirt on what was going on with me. 

It is not clear to me whose side he was really on because he did think Harvard was terrible and also would always remind me of how the way Harvard handled the bullying and sexual harassment by Jordan Tigani and his room mate was an indication of how they were "against you from the very start." 

[Added 7-8-2017. I need to add a little caveat here. First of all, Christopher Thorpe would always say "Harvard showed its true colors with you from the very start over how they handled" that situation regarding my former hallmates. Also, nothing Christopher Thorpe said standing by itself would have led me necessarily to conclude something along the lines of a half cover up I describe is what's necessary and, indeed, how the system works and I must go along with something like that or else I'll be one of the casualties of the half cover up that is scheduled or planned anyway. You have to take something he said, or a few things he said, and then understand certain things that went on with my attorney hired to get me off on these charges I was set up on, the education he gave me over how the system works and how I cannot or must not complain about wrong doing by cops, I can only complain about wrong doing by non-cops so long as uncovering that wrong doing doesn't cause cops to get into trouble too for collusion,  thus there already a half cover up would be necessary. And, tricks threatened against me should I refuse to go along with a corrupt settling of the situation involved my evidence being thrown out or tampered with by cops, fake evidence planted, etc. And I could go into extensive detail, but it's quite complicated. And then this Dana Bogdar also communicated several things that helped me come to that conclusion. In other words, Christopher Thorpe did not on his own tell me some kind of half cover up had to occur. Rather, for me to feel backed into a corner AND simultaneously "educated" into the notion that that's how the system worked involved the complicated machinations of a number of people, and for me to explain all that would be lengthy, and require taking information from here, there, elsewhere, put it all together and all. Here is where I had previously had electric shock treatment plus oxygen starvation, and it damaged my hippocampus in a way so that, when too stressed out, or too severely emotionally or psychologically abused or stressed in just the right manner, my brain will baulk at the prospect of figuring out how to write out all of this information, I just won't be able to do it or won't feel able to do it, unless able to find myself a situation where I can discuss things calmly and in a safe environment with someone who is supportive, and because of that I will go and simply avoid doing that, and substitute a written summary or a simplistic statement that includes part of the information, but not a whole complicated discussion of things. And therefore could look erroneous -- or, at least, those in a position to want to try to cover things up and discredit me would seize upon that as an excuse to disbelieve me -- all the while refusing to question me in a manner that would result in me clarifying anything. Though, Christopher Thorpe was a Harvard elite who was not home schooled like me. Him acting in a manner that would confirm what I might have doubted was true based on conversations I had with lowlifes was very decisive. So, of course, I focused on him. And, the solution for anyone who reads that and doesn't find it too clear or convincing is to ask me what about what Christopher Thorpe and what he said led me to quote him there and say he was responsible for me feeling sure a half cover up had to occur. He along with a few other Harvard or other elites who, if you talk to them and they seem on the same page, well?  The key here is, you don't seize upon glossed over simplifications done in an environment where one is required to do everything in a rush amid severe stress and isolation as an excuse to refuse to believe someone and refuse to investigate further. You go look at that, notice it is unclear, and then ASK why I'd have concluded such a thing, all the while allowing me the opportunity to explain something that may well be complicated.

I notice that, when this website was written or when parts of it were written, I was experiencing psychological torture from members of the gay hook up scene that couldn't be better at aggravating whatever incapacitation I had in this regard, as well as I was isolated from individuals with whom I could properly verbally talk things through with, which is another requirement I have in order to think things through properly in order to articulate things properly. Something which, again, might be especially peculiar or unique to me and related to brain damage or other handicaps that would have come from a very bizarre upbringing that was experimental it would seem and resulted in me being deprived of an environment where I could learn to speak properly until after I was 15.]

However, as regards to the handling of my situation, I had already hired a lawyer, and had started emailing an attorney, and of course all my emails sent to the attorney were monitored by the NSA. And I do know it was pretty obvious to me that was the case, sort of like tons of gay men in Boston knew all about lots of things I told my attorney and I'd often meet up with gay men who'd tell me things that were sort of nearly exact quotes of "inside information" -- e.g., things I had emailed my attorney. 

This was when Christopher Thorpe said something to me, in passing, regarding how people are going to start saving their asses. But that there are some people who, after the things they have done, they can't. And then he says, online "some of them will be killed and some of them will be indighted." 

You have to then understand that many other individuals told me, if I am lucky, I can get police to investigate things, rather than try to cover things up in a way that amounts to somehow doing away with me, but they'll insist on covering some things up. And I have to agree to that. 

[Added February 2018: I should note. Everything everyone told me regarding how a half cover up had to occur happened in context with the crimes perpetrated against me being dismissed, cops and associated agencies kicking me out and baldly telling me I have to stop talking to them and they will not protect me, and then subsequent crimes continuing to occur which were way worse than the original, and at some point way scarier and bizarre. And which were, systematically and repeatedly covered up over and over again by police and medical professionals. And then my lawyer started bellowing at me and basically telling me that I have to shut up about anything that might implicate cops or members of the system in wrong doing they do not want to be exposed over. Here is where this Dana Bogdar then starts telling me that things will be covered up, I need to go along with it, and they will start doing to others -- other potential witnesses -- what they were doing to me, only much worse, just to keep them quiet. I should note, by that time, I'd been involuntarily drugged and raped many times, as well as had drug planted on me, framed, had hospitals rig tests in order to cover up what really occurred, and then threaten me that they could deliberately play dumb and allow me to die if they wanted to, but otherwise I hadn't had worse types of retaliation like broken legs and other things potentially leading to very serious injuries. Such measures, I was told by Dana Bogdar, were going to be carried out now that higher level individuals within the mafia found out what had been going on and started to view what I had witnessed or experienced as something they need to cover up in a serious way. And they despise nothing worse than rats or snitches, in which case if I portrayed myself as someone willing to cover everything up, rather than a trouble maker who is always trying to go to the police about people, then other people besides myself will be viewed as the real troublemakers in this matter, the ones who instigated it by date rape drugging me, having me raped, and then subsequently subjected to incidences apparently threatening to the mafia via my potential to be a witness through no fault of my own. Notice how everything about this situation can be seen as an effort by crooked cops and medical professionals into saying whatever would help them be able to portray me as amenable to cooperating with a series of potential terrorist incidences to be carried out by others. At the same time, of course, the ways in which they threatened and intimidated me were intended to be covered up in exactly the right manner so they could accuse me of taking that position totally on my own, or at the very least without very serious coercion. I should note, at some point all such reprisals ceased, and I was able to say what I wanted without further retaliation. And I eventually did end up little by little opening up about the whole story. By then, the Boston Bombing had happened, but what is also the case is, I should have felt safe to come forward much longer ago, however members of the gay community were engaging in such severe psychological torture of me and gas lighting of me that I remained intimidated far longer than I should have. I was being deprived of all the social support necessary. It is these individuals who later were blackmailed and used as guinea pigs for extremely debilitating and permanently damaging medical experiments involving fake organs, fake rectums, and robotic medical enhancements. All, I note, by the same medical system that was responsible for working with crooked cops and drug addicts to intimidate me in this manner in the first place. Which means this whole thing was probably premeditated with a desire to recruit guinea pigs for involuntary medical experiments only very serious blackmail can induce people to volunteer themselves over. And, they probably were involved in the Boston Bombing in some way. And I note, prior to the Boston Bombing, bullying within the Rhode Island gay community involved all manners of nasty treatment of me, causing me to avoid essentially everyone except for this one guy in Fall River who, strangely enough, did not pull all the same crap with me that so many others did. I should even note, before finding this one guy in Fall River to hook up with -- someone I would not have chosen but for the fact that this was the only person who wasn't horrible to me -- let me give a good example of the tricks everyone else would pull to cause me to avoid them. In one instance, five hook ups in a row, every single gay man I tried to hook up with had diarrhea when he came to my place. That's how far they went to try to steer me in that direction, while trying to make it look like I rejected them for no good reason. Here is where, this type of abuse from the hook up scene was something I was enduring non-stop in Providence, and for awhile I was complaining bitterly to many people about it, to no avail. By the time I get steered towards that Fall River guy via diarrhea and other similarly awful nasty behaviors, I had given up complaining largely due to -- well, in a way this was psychological. They did what had always worked in the past to get me to stop complaining about abuse, whether it was to get me to stop talking about abuse at Harvard, or to get me to stop talking about being date rape drugged and raped, or to get me to stop complaining about the abuse that eventually caused me to be steered towards that Fall River guy: they had someone lead me on and cause me to become attached to him, set him up as someone who was a potential sympathetic figure who I could complain about the abuse to, who then proceeded to betray me in a cruel way and cut me off abruptly. And it worked. They were able to steer me towards this Fall River guy -- who much later on did start talking about all his Muslim connections on facebook -- via abuse that I simply didn't complain about. Of course, I know they were being monitored closely perhaps by the FBI and caught, kind of like everyone knows what they did. If that Fall River guy knew the Boston Bombers, then they were doing this in order to help dispense with me as a witness.

Let me also ad, for a short time, actually just once, I spoke to this female cop involved in handling prostitution issues, and she literally had said, with regard to the mafia and with regard to my situation, when I explained that so far I don't seem to have offended the mafia as they haven't done anything to me yet, that "in these types of situations, they usually wait for things to die down first, and then they do something." Note, death threats were on my computer, I had just complained about rape, I had been framed on drug charges in a manner that was an obvious frame up at least if you filed discovery you would see police had done several things very unusual. This same cop working in prostitution knew about all of this. Or, rather, she knew I was date rape drugged and had death threats. And she sounded all enthusiastic and friendly at first. And then when I explain I also was framed by police, that's when she suddenly gets very cold. That's when she said "they will wait for things to die down and then do something" and that's when she also says she can't do anything in the way of investigation unless I get someone "from the inside" -- aka, one of the perpetrators, to voluntarily agree to come forward and back me up. And I have to be the one to convince them to agree to come forward. It's not like they will lift a finger to do stuff like monitor them for drugs, catch them, and then use drug charges as leverage to force them to testify. 

Someone else also told me online how, with regard to killing me, yeah they won't do that now, "too many questions will be asked" and others online repeated basically the same consensus. And what ended up later being launched were what looked like attempts to discredit me via fake psych diagnosis, e.g., saying nobody was doing anything to me, I was just crazy. Files were deleted from my computer via computer hacking, and I was made to know about it. It all looked like an eventual death, combined with destruction of evidence, could be planned in the future for me. In one of two ways. Accident or drug overdose. Or being framed, my own attorney corruptly works with the system to suppress exculpatory evidence, and I get sent to prison just long enough to be murdered there in a sneaky manner making it look like a suicide or accident. At this point, if nobody asks questions, it won't go any further. And, I note, there were plenty of questions to be asked with regard to my twin brother's case, and nobody had asked them either, and many individuals had suppressed several efforts on my part to ask them. A cover up of pretty obvious stuff could be very likely if I wasn't alive to prevent one from happening.

But, I should also note, if a lot of what Dana Bogdar and this cop (and other cops and my own attorney) told me was all bullshit, with regard to the mafia and how it works, at least they were all on the same page. Dana Bogdar's pronouncements that the mafia was going to break a lot of people's legs, and it might be mine unless I back off and demonstrate just how much I am not a rat or a snitch, would not have had the same effect but for what that female cop working in prostitution said. "They will wait for things to die down, and THEN they will do it." I'd at least have asked "if they are going to do it, why aren't they doing it already?" Or, I'd have worried about them doing it soon, panicked, and gone to the FBI right away. Well, actually, that's exactly what I tried to do. I tried calling --and the way they behaved. Like they were complicit in all this. And three emails sent to the Boston FBI were simply deleted from my gmail sent folder rather than responded to. I still don't know if the Boston FBI was criminally complicit in all this, or whether computer hacking might have interfered with certain communications and I did not know any better.]

[editted 2 25 pm -- oh yes I remember some of the things some of them said. "The mafia has its own justice system" but "sometimes they throw a bone to the conventional legal system." And a big theme was how they privately punish people who create problems, but then they punish the victim for complaining or even do away with the victim in order to cover it up. Of course, I was hoping to avoid being done away with in the end.]

So the way things get covered up, some cover story gets floated which isn't true. I don't know how many times I've heard people say to me stuff like "there is the story newspapers print, and then there is the real story."

[Added February 2018: People also uniformly agreed, for awhile, that the mafia would be happy to allow the rapists, involuntary druggers, and other criminals who had abused me to be prosecuted, so long as it can be done in some way that covers up complicity of the mafia. And, yes the mafia would like the idea of making a deal with me that allows prosecution of criminals who committed crimes against me, that halfway covered up things and insulated them from culpability. But, in order to get lots of people to change their stories, all in exactly the right way -- so they testify to the same agreed-upon story -- the mafia will insist on breaking people's legs, and etc. etc. etc., just to ensure compliance with the same story or narrative. But they might agree not to do that to me, if I seem sufficiently complaint or enthusiastic about working with the mafia, absent such intimidation, so as to make it not necessary to do it to me. And, especially, if they meet me, get to know me, and like me. Nobody quite told me to say it, but it became obvious to me that saying "oh I would never want to inform on the mafia, because I just want to be able to party and do drugs" was a very safe thing to say. They definitely do not worry about drug addicts. They know they can trust them. I should also note, around this time, all of these conversations seem to have been monitored electronically, and what happened for awhile was, even my plans to have this kind of half cover up became the subject of intimidation. I had already had drugs planted on me, and Rockport police started routinely following me or otherwise doing strange things every time I talked about such a thing, until I changed my tune and said I want no criminal prosecution whatsoever, I want everything covered up. And then, once I changed my position that way, they stopped the covert harassment. The problem being, my attorney had promised to handle things corruptly, if I were framed again, I could be sent to jail long enough to be murdered there. I am not sure it is possible to prove they really harassed me that way, though around that time Rockport was building this extravagant $20 million arts center. Let's just say, A LOT of money was pouring into Rockport then.....

Due to the criminal charges including many items where cops engaged in blatant wrong doing and framing of me, and the fact that my defense attorney was uncooperative and indicated to me that embarrassing the system would compromise his career as judges would, in the future, punish his future clients if he embarrassed them, I continued with the "I want to cover everything up" mantra, until the charges were adjudicated and eventually dismissed. After they were dismissed I did tell my criminal attorney that I wanted to get these individuals in trouble, who perpetrated these crimes against me, and he told me that doing such a thing would be a waste of time and I should just go back to Harvard instead. By this time I had Brian Bixby as attorney. I wonder if he got the feds involved to monitor the situation even while playing along with Brian Roman's suggestion. In the end, I start agreeing to go back to Harvard, and at some point, after having enough positive conversations with people at Harvard, I sort of thought maybe I have more courage with regard to the whole issue of criminal prosecution, and proposed again, or rather simply bowed to reality: there had to be some kind of criminal prosecution of SOME people who criminally harmed me. But, I'll agree to protect Harvard's reputation and change my story in all sorts of ways with regard to Harvard, if they stop blocking such a thing. Basically, instead of making a deal with the mafia to cover up mafia stuff, in return for them giving the go ahead for criminal prosecution of a bunch of low lines, I'd agree to make a deal with Harvard to protect Harvard's reputation, and they'd allow even parts of the mafia that didn't include them to be exposed to criminal prosecution.

My understanding of the situation then, still, was that the FBI and police routinely engaged in absolute blatantly selective enforcement, politically protecting certain criminals, and if I didn't respect that and tried to get them to do what they wouldn't do (aka prosecuting certain crimes which they deem off limits due to political reasons rather than the underlying facts of the case), then I'd be victim of not only more framings, but possibly broken legs as well. Their handling of Whitey Bulger, I should note, was something I was made aware of. The Boston FBI arranged for an informant against Whitey Bulger to be killed for trying to come forward about him. Everything about this crime was perpetrated with Whitey Bulger in mind, with this man stalking me online for ages claiming to be rich and powerful and, over the phone, claiming to be a Whitey Bulger type. 

But if I respect those political considerations, in particular respect Harvard's right to be free from harm to its reputation, I was made to understand I could get a lot of stuff done, vis-a-vis the criminal prosecution angle. Of course, everyone would have to agree to consistently testify in a manner that was "on the same page" as the official cover story the police and FBI force everyone to agree upon, so my assumption was in order to make sure people know they are really serious about the whole thing, and that people don't mess up and accidentally tell stories that contradict, they arrange for criminals within the mafia kill some people and maybe just beat up other people and break other people's legs. Which, to be honest, could very well be true. I mean, it was true with Whitey Bulger. And then, of course, there were some very scary ways in which I was intimidated many times by things crooked cops and others did on the streets, which in the end wouldn't leave much evidence or proof -- aside from how scared and intimidated I was. But notice how the desire for a criminal prosecution as a victim of rape and other crimes starts to lead to a victim looking like he is trying to involve himself in terrorist plots. Or, at the very least, leads to the victim looking dangerous in some way, particularly if they try to just iron it all out by arguing that I just have some kind of mental health issue, and thereby a whole group of individuals can be exonerated of a whole elaborately plotted criminal scheme. ]

The problems with that scenario I felt were, how could it have been possible to partly cover up a whole series of crimes that were that many crimes, went on for such a long time, and were too long and involved? A half cover up didn't seem too plausible for me -- except my understanding was, if I couldn't somehow "swing" that, it would be all covered up, and in a manner that was to my detriment. So, in face of uncooperative police, I felt that "proposing" such a thing (at other's prompting) would give me a ray of hope. 

Meanwhile, there were quite a number of individuals, rather respectable and high profile, who were attempting to convince me that this was how the system worked, and while I did sort of vaguely see there were problems with that whole scenario, I was at that time feeling very intimidated and I felt like I needed to give lipservice to "agreeing" to be cooperative with such a thing and even WANTING to cover it all up.

The end result was, I ended up feeling like I really wanted to get so I could talk to people who would work with me to DEVISE a cover story that would be plausible and not preposterous on its face. This would be something I would have been especially eager to work on quickly, so as to not be one of those who ends up getting killed for saying the wrong thing. 

Then, around this time, Pete from Cape Cod -- who had been regularly sending me a lot of very scary threatening text messages -- told me that I was going to fail at this and would inevitably "sing like a canary and get whacked." Negative feedback from him, and other gay men, made me decide to put up an effort to SHOW I could do a good job of covering things up. And I was regularly talking to Yuko Hayashi and David Illingworth at the time as well. And they were on the same page as well. As was my attorney, or so it seemed. 

I do recall Yuko being diagnosed with memory problems and taken to an assisted living center, but I don't think she had memory problems. Furthermore, she was also pretty angry about it and said a few things to me, rather subtly, to indicate so and indicate that her memory was perfect. After James David Christie says something about her having Alzheimers -- which I didn't think she had -- I either told her or she found out somehow he had told me that, and she ended up having a few conversations with me where she went out of her way to recall lots of details from the past, like when I was playing at Old West Church, very accurately and precisely.

However, I do realize diagnosing her with memory problems allows for a corrupt system to then say she is incapable of testifying as to what she was telling me, or the direction in which she was encouraging me, and would also make it tougher for me to -- ok I was telling everyone that I'm willing to "work things out with the mafia" and that Yuko Hayashi was giving me lots of advice about the matter and really helping me with it. Which she was, but diagnose her with memory problems and Alzheimers, and then you can totally erase her contribution to the whole matter. 

In any case, what I remember was, trying to do my best, in conversations with people, to prove I could be discreet about the past and "not talk about the mafia." However, one thing I notice was, in a lot of conversations I had with people around that time, they went out of their way to "put me on the spot" so that they'd end up asking me questions that inevitably led to me not knowing what to say, in place of the truth, and I'd screw up and try to say something that was a "cover up" I'd figured out really fast on the spot, and I'd stumble and it just wasn't something that was plausible. 

What I do remember was Yuko Hayashi telling me I needed to be patient and it would take me awhile to find someone I could trust who could or would help me to get this sort of stuff right. In any case, what I wonder was, was this an elaborate manipulation? And then the moment I go along with it and put up a show of being "cooperative," then they can sort of do a "gotcha" thing?

Of course, if I've been brainwashed into trying to put on a show of going along with a cover up, that's when they can deploy all sorts of undercover officers to at the very least figure out some way to discredit me in out of context ways. Though, that's the thing, if you saw EVERYTHING these people were telling me, it was obvious THESE PEOPLE were insisting on stuff and I felt backed into a corner and felt like, to buy time I should temporarily give lipservice to agreeing to be cooperative with such a thing. 

Which, of course, is precisely what you SHOULD DO until and unless you get police agreeing to officially put you under protection. Or, absent that, until and unless you are able to upload some of the proof you have showing you were a victim of all sorts of crimes onto the internet and alert the whole entire media and online community to it -- so that a cover up becomes impossible, and people give up on the notion of covering it up using crooked cops willing to commit or collude in crimes. Of course, if you look at my comment history online, I think it's pretty obvious I was quite intimidated at first, and then gradually started opening up more and more. 

Here's the thing. If police aren't willing to protect you and leave you open to being a crime victim. And that's the thing. Right when this was all going on I was being the victim of false insurance claims as well as had my apartment broken into and TV stolen, and I lived on the first floor. They were obviously not protecting me, and criminals were obviously not leaving me alone but going out of their way to behave in a manner that proved that police weren't protecting me -- because, after all, the criminals who stole my TV even left a fingerprint on the window, which cops refused to lift. And the false insurance claim involved a neighbor claiming that a fence which had been deteriorating for years had been hit by my car when it was obvious it hadn't been -- and the cop yelled at me and refused to come look at it. The end result was, it was obvious I was not only not being protected by cops, but cops were letting criminals know it was still open season on me and they could get away with doing things to me, and this meant that my only hope was to go along with giving lipservice to agreeing to "work everything out with the mafia" and agree to cover things up. Until I got police protection, and as long as people did things that indicated I was in danger, of course I felt like I had to say whatever was necessary to mollify criminals.

Of course, eventually I start telling my story and opening up, little by little, about certain details I previously thought had to be covered up. And I was practicing the organ at Harvard then. Where police COULD kick me out or subtly have a problem with me or engage in subtle intimidating behavior, the moment I disclose the wrong information that offends the wrong political interests. And, they kept not doing that. And I kept telling more and more of my story, kept going to campus to practice and see if anything happened, and they kept not bothering me in response to what I said, until I eventually opened up about the whole thing and nothing was covered up. 

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As you can see here. But it took such a long time for me to get over all of that. But you can see that from an exchange between me and Sandy Selesky, former building manager of Busch Hall. My response was July 23 2015. 

Happy Holidays

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Sandy Selesky <sandyselesky@gmail.com>

12/23/14

to me

Hi Damian,

I just wanted to send you a quick note to wishyou a very happy Holiday Season and Happy New Year.  I hope all is going well for you and that you've been doing lots of hiking.  I also hope that you will soon be able to get back to Harvard (if you haven't already) to finish your degree.  Are you still able to play the organ at one of the Boston churches?  Areyou still livingpart time in Rockport?  I've been keeping very busy in my retirement and am enjoying it more and more.   However, right now I have a cold which is never fun.

Anyway, I send my best wishes to you for a very Happy and healthy 2015.

Take care,

Sandy

Damian Schloming <dmschlom@gmail.com>

Jul 23

to me

I did a lot of kayaking at Lake Winnipesaukee in New Hampshire this past summer, and I took up skiing and have rented a studio in Lincoln NH near Mt Loon so I can ski there more often. And since that's near where the lake is, I can keep it over the summer and it's just as cheap as camping at the lake was. 

I have also been working out at the gym and getting in much better shape. 

At Memorial Church they have been letting me practice on the Fisk organ some. However, I do have a sore upper back which I need to be careful of when I play the organ, so I might cut back on that for awhile, but that is perfectly timed given that it is ski season now anyway. 

As for returning to Harvard to get my degree, I am realizing, the main reason why I have engaged in a "process" whereby I say I want to finish Harvard and get my degree was because of a huge amount of pressure I received from two lawyers I hired, due to a legal situation I was in where I was date rape drugged, raped, and had a number of other crimes committed against me, even while police officers first stonewalled me, refused to do police reports, refused to allow me to submit evidence, and then tried to frame me on false charges and participate in a number of campaigns to attempt to intimidate me. 

One of these incidents involved the Harvard police. I was date rape drugged and, while under the influence of a date rape drug, driven by someone I don't know to the Harvard campus, where I wandered around, ended up visiting the computer center and wrote some emails to people (which are still on my gmail account) that would tend to corroborate I was under the influence of some kind of drug that affected my vision and my coordination. 

I had an encounter with Harvard police and ended up getting a Taxi ride home, however that encounter with the Harvard police was one which, if not rectified, would make me not want to return to Harvard -- unless browbeaten and threatened by attorneys and others into pretending to want to. When combined with a pattern of death threats and police harassment, the end result is me obediently cooperating with a process where I put on an act of pretending to want to go back to Harvard, and pretending to be wanting to "prove" myself to them (as if been caught engaging in bad behavior and trying to attone), which looks a lot like a process whereby I have been bullied into covering up the wrong doings and crimes of others in a manner detrimental to myself. Simultaneously, my lawyers and tons of other people told me, at all costs, I had to cover up everything that happened to me, which I was doing somewhat, in my conversations with the dean. I must not "talk about the mafia," according to my attorney. 

I have recently begun to participate in many social media and journalistic sites with comments section, particularly those which cover issues pertaining to rape. Now I tend to be appalled at how much these feminists want to redefine rape so as to focus all of their attention on trivial stuff which ought not to be considered rape. In part, what's appalling is how this focus on trivial annoyances some women suffer seems to combine with an utter indifference to the plight of those who have suffered from serious crimes, such as what I suffered from. Almost like, they want to narcissistically glorify the minor annoyances of upper class white women even while excluding from their focus any kind of crime that borders on serious -- which automatically does not fit their snobby world view because any kind of rape (or other form of abuse) which is too serious is "the sort of thing that happens to black girls" or other members of the "unwashed masses" and totally "not a good fit" for them and their narcissistic "sympathy and compassion" and "oh isn't it terrible the way women have it so hard" campaigns. But, at the very least, reading these sites and participating in commenting on them helped me understand just how badly brainwashed I have been, both at the hands of lawyers, "friends" and Harvard officials I have been dealing with on the matter. 

There is absolutely no way I want to go back to Harvard, unless they can prove - to my satisfaction - they are not a criminal institution. And, frankly, this behavior which I have suffered from is about as low class as anyone can possibly get and a disgrace. Furthermore, I told the Dean I was dealing with that I had been date rape drugged, and also that I had plenty of proof that would corroborate my side of the story. Though, at the time I was pretty obviously scared to accuse the Harvard Police of misconduct. But this was largely because of how many times I was told that simply pointing out unethical behavior (no matter how obvious) of police would result in me getting killed or other unpleasant things happening to me. 

In any case, the dean basically told me I would not be allowed to see any report by the Harvard police -- almost certainly fraudulent and probably accusing me of any numbers of bad behavior -- they would have done after that encounter. And she also made it clear, I was not welcome to submit any proof that I was raped/date rape drugged, or the victim of any other kind of wrong-doing by several police forces, all as part of a campaign to intimidation following the rape/date rape drugging. 

Well, first of all, it can't be covered up anymore. Because I have participated in many sites and disclosed what happened to me -- along with plenty of documentary proof I could not have faked -- so the position of my attorneys, seemingly echoed by Harvard, that I am to simply "just cover it all up" really is untenable now. 

Meanwhile, I presume, the way it all works, of course of utmost importance is Harvard's not being seen as the type of institution that would treat victims of serious crimes insensitively. But, of course, because they're Harvard, all responsibility is on me to ensure they aren't seen that way -- even while zero responsibility is on them to not be that way. So what am I supposed to do? Pretend not to be bothered? Put up a really good act so it looks like Harvard is behaving properly? Even while they do not fail to continue bullying me? Since it would appear, their only solution to having dealt with a situation by abusing someone appears to be: more abuse. 

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Of course, by now, you have me as a person who was tampered with so badly as a witness, it is hard to bring charges against the perpetrators in this matter. That, I do believe, was exactly the point. Though, why did so many individuals complicit in all this abuse get blackmailed and used as guinea pigs for medical experiments? Hmmmmmm, I wonder if the Boston Bombing created a cut and dried situation making them easy targets for blackmail. Even while everything before that is murky and the system that was responsible for perpetrating all this intimidation against me in the first place -- knowingly doing so in anticipation of a potential terrorist plot -- was sneaky enough so individuals within not only can get away with it but might even be rewarded by the same corporations profiting off this medical experimentation. (Which, I note, saves vast amounts of money, when done on criminals who won't sue should anything go wrong.) 

Notice how, later on, it looks like Harvard was predicting terrorism in connection with my situation several years prior to the Boston Bombing. I really do think there is a problem with organized crime here, and corporate profit is the motive. And academia and high level elite institutions are complicit, and they are more complicit than institutions with less reputation and money, and it is their complicity with such violence that gives them the means to perpetrate the kinds of intimidation that makes involuntary human experimentation possible, and this gives them an edge or advantage over their competition, and that's why corporations give them money. Because of the things they can do in return which lead to enormous profits and which can't be done any other way or can't be done elsewhere.  

I want to also note what this implies about academia's obsession with affirmative action. The problem being, why are they so committed to diversity? At least so long as involuntary, Nazi style medical experimentation routinely is promulgated by liberal academia via organized crime and very cleverly covered up, you have to regard their affirmative action programs as suspect. Auschwitz was diverse. It always works better to target minorities because minorities are more convenient to exploit. You don't have to be racist to want to do it. You merely have to be greedy.

Liberal academia can have their hearts bleed and talk all about how compassionate they feel towards the poor and towards minorities, and it's really a terrible situation but they can't do anything about it because doing so will compromise their funding. I note all these Ivy League institutions have been doing fund raising campaigns, lots of it to engineering of exactly the nature that encompasses the medical experiments I've personally witnessed on some people. If Harvard had abstained, their latest $6 billion in fund raising would have gone to Yale, Columbia, MIT, Brown, Dartmouth, Stanford and all the other institutions. They just can't not do it. And, yes it's unfair, but if they didn't do the bulk of it to minorities and socially marginalized individuals, they'd have to find non-minorities to do it to, and they'd complain.