Damian M. Schloming ideas and information

Naomi Wolf on rape: "...ours is increasingly an age of geopolitics by blackmail."

This website is to allow me to present intelligibly my thoughts and insights on various social, political, historical and even scientific issues I've been studying in the past two years. 

Some of which I have background knowledge of due to having been involved with and interested in various political movements many years ago. 

My political viewpoint leans towards libertarian, except that I am not completely happy with the way some of them think. Libertarians want limited government and civil liberties. As a matter of principle, that is excellent. But then libertarians seem to suffer from this ingrained bias of Western Culture that you can somehow intellectually decide that government "should be" a certain way and then the perfect society can then be achieved by some legislative body sitting down and crafting some written rule decreeing that that is how society is to be from now on.

 

Actually, I think government and the larger society it is embedded in is more like some kind of living beast that you can train or that can morph in one direction or another, but it can't be so easily manipulated or changed as we think. Written rules don't have the exact effect they literally intend, but instead enforcement of the rules and all sorts of other considerations regarding government bureaucracies results in all sorts of ripple effects or unintended consequences. As a result, the most free society does not necessarily result from the one with the nicest and most free sounding written constitution or constitutional rights guaranteeing liberty. A very good example of this issue is the liberal Warren Court expanding all sorts of fifth amendment procedural and technical criminal protections for defendants. Liberals saying they want to do this might be arguing this is to help the poor. The opposite is the truth. This is to help defense attorneys, and why is that a bad thing? Because criminal procedures and technicalities of the liberal Warren Court only resulted in defendants having protection IF they could hire an expensive enough attorney to do a good enough job PRESSING them. Public defenders are part of the corrupt court system, they deliberately do a bad job so as to make sure well heeled defendants find it worth their while to pay extra. Huge sentences ALSO give well heeled defendants more incentive to pay extra. Thus, defense attorneys representing rich criminal defendants have a vested interest in maintaining the strict sentencing policies responsible for Mass Incarceration. Furthermore, there was a law school bubble which burst, and now law schools are doing poorly because lawyers are not finding it worth their while to spend so much money on a law degree. Fact of the matter is, those liberal Warren Court protections indirectly increased legal fees for defense attorneys, thereby contributing to the upward pressure on college tuition and law school tuition, simply because the amount of money attorneys could make from a law degree made it more worthwhile. 

It also is true that the regulatory state increased in many other ways, increasing demand for attorneys in other spheres besides the criminal justice system. But I am going to talk about the criminal justice system here for now to use it as an example.

This is just one example showing how a policy that, examined in the most superficial way you think it's designed to help criminal defendants overall in the long run has the exact opposite effect. Because these protections are ones that only can be accessed by those with the money to pay for top dollar attorneys. And, it isn't always necessarily related to the facts of the case. The attorney usually has an incestuous relationship with everyone else in the court system, so much so that basically if you pay the right attorney enough money, you will get off because he is friends with all the judges and prosecutors, and parole officers, etc.

And for me to say that could lead to others thinking it is rather awful to have a court system so incestuously corrupt. Except, these are all nice people who know each other and court systems have ALWAYS been like this, more or less. And they always will be this way. Government is incapable of being perfect. Understanding its inherent imperfections such as this are necessary when it comes to avoiding passing laws which interact with such a culture in a way to produce very bad outcomes.

 

After all, we have always had government and, for some reason, it would appear if we always have had it, that is because we need it. The inner workings of government are so awful, you discover after you observe it, it can easily lead many to think we should just abolish it. But, given that that is impossible, the best alternative is to understand it as inherently flawed, and realistically think of how to make things "the least bad."

This is what I have thought for a long time, yet only recently have I stumbled across some law professors who subscribe to a movement called "legal realism." It turns out they think exactly the way I do, and see the same flaws in our society (or in the thinking of popular culture which leads to wrong-headed policies in our legal system) that I see.

Oddly enough, they seem to describe themselves as leftists yet they are not the kind of ordinary mainstream leftist most people would understand to be "of the left." Which is strange because I never would have thought of myself as a liberal -- but not a conservative either. But maybe this is because of certain strands of liberalism I have been exposed to which are quite awful. 

In any case, why categorize oneself? As I study and learn more about society, I like to share various insights and not limit myself to any one "box" or "category" that I pigeonhole myself into.

completely left out, in this conversation, the way BARCC was behaving. BARCC = the Boston Area Rape Crisis Center. Basically, the way they work, you call the hotline and they are supposed to call back within 10 minutes. Well, eight times in a row they wouldn't call back within ten minutes and I always had to call them back a second time before they'd call back. Once I did, then the conversations generally left something to be desired and, well, it's all about micro aggressions and subtle hints that the reason for the hostility may have something to do with me publicly exposing them online. 

With them, and government agencies like them, they don't want to get a bad name. But, instead of avoiding bad behavior, they try to intimidate people into shutting up about their bad behavior. It is also true I have been subjected to an enormous amount of harassment since starting to talk again to the rape crisis center and also since starting to talk back and forth with the Fenway Violence Recovery Program, which is the agency that would be responsible for networking with the police and getting any investigation going into all the crimes that were committed against me. 

BARCC advocates have definitely hinted that, with regard to my situation, they were perpetrators. If that's the case, though, so was the Fenway Violence Recovery Program. So, of course, I wonder if I should avoid dealing with either of them. And definitely avoid following any advice from the Harvard Rape Office. Odd how Janet Halley would argue it's totally stacked against the accused -- which is true, in a theoretical sense if you read the written rape/sex harassment policy -- but that makes little difference in real life because Harvard is so corrupt, it never even follows its own rules anyway. They're above that, you know, because they are Harvard and they are powerful and can get away with doing whatever they feel like.

I also should point out that, with Heather Marlowe, I began talking with her after she connected with me regarding my comments on the huffington post, where I was remarking about the corruption of a lot of the rape industry. So, she tends to be supportive of my position in a qualified way. However, I probably should at some point post a bit of the history with her. Where, at one point, she talks of how she is being pressured to cease and desist from talking to me. Then she tells me Sheryl Sandberg has contributed money. Then a whole bunch of her friends viciously gang up on me and block me. Then she informs me she is being paid $10,000 to perform at Harvard. Once you are being paid $10,000 to perform at Harvard, of course you have to please them.

And I can understand, from her standpoint and from the standpoint of some of the rape activists she knows, they are somewhat marginalized, don't have alternative ways of making money (like being construction workers) and have to rely on gifts from others. Pursuing a halfway arm's length strategy with me which consists of obvious blackmail is, in a way, the best they can do in terms of exposing the system in a manner that is educational to the public in a sense. So I don't really blame them. 

But it is, of course, rather stressful to me. 

 

 

 

  • Saturday

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    9/5, 12:32pm

    Heather Marlowe

    how goes?

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    9/5, 12:34pm

    Damian Schloming

    Dealing with a lot of micro aggressions from local people and waitresses

    And waiters

    Is truly amazing how despicable people can be

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    9/5, 12:36pm

    Heather Marlowe

    hahahaha

    despicable is a good word

    i love that photo of ursula juxtaposed with hilary

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    9/5, 12:37pm

    Damian Schloming

    Harvard and others are linked to the mafia

    Exposing them means tons of despicable little mean things from local people businesses a churches

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    9/5, 12:38pm

    Heather Marlowe

    yes i'm not surprised. all of san francisco city officials are linked to the chinese and italian mafia as well

    yes

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    9/5, 12:39pm

    Damian Schloming

    They have no shame and no honor and no dignity

    It is like dealing with bratty three year olds

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    9/5, 12:39pm

    Heather Marlowe

    yes. ugh

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    9/5, 12:40pm

    Damian Schloming

    And the Boston area rape crisis center and the sexual assault office at Harvard, the people I talk to there just as bad

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    9/5, 12:40pm

    Heather Marlowe

    how has the harvard sexual assault group been?

    so they are no longer being *that* supportive?

    are you recording your convos/interactions with them for possible legal admissions?

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    9/5, 12:42pm

    Damian Schloming

    They are just as bad

    Gas lighting is what they are pros at

    It's illegal for me to

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    9/5, 12:43pm

    Heather Marlowe

    just tell them that you are.

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    9/5, 12:43pm

    Damian Schloming

    So they can get away with it

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    9/5, 12:43pm

    Heather Marlowe

    i do this every time i deal with city officials

    but i understand.

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    9/5, 12:44pm

    Damian Schloming

    And?

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    9/5, 12:45pm

    Heather Marlowe

    i do it for my protection

    i am suing them

    they comply and they still act terribly lolol

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    9/5, 12:45pm

    Damian Schloming

    At Harvard she pretended not to understand -/ e g implying I was incoherent and crazy even though I wasn't

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    9/5, 12:46pm

    Heather Marlowe

    UGH

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    9/5, 12:46pm

    Damian Schloming

    And then told me a bunch of gibberish

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    9/5, 12:46pm

    Heather Marlowe

    yes probably they told you rehearsed lines that they are supposed to say

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    9/5, 12:46pm

    Damian Schloming

    Which was a bunch of veiled hints as to how they were trying to handle the legal situation

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    9/5, 12:47pm

    Heather Marlowe

    because they are institutional advocates who play in the sandbox with your oppressors

    so there is no room for your narrative

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    9/5, 12:47pm

    Damian Schloming

    And veiled threats

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    9/5, 12:47pm

    Heather Marlowe

    that's why you should be recording. for your protection.

    but i don't know

    they might report you

    for doing that

    ugh

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    9/5, 12:48pm

    Damian Schloming

    And then afterwards I get an instant message from this real estate lady who has heard and paid attention to everything I have disclosed for over a year, and then suddenly she says oh what you're saying no is so extreme I am afraid you were going to kill all the people who did this to you you need to soften your approach I'm trying to help you with your presentation

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    9/5, 12:49pm

    Heather Marlowe

    yes. how many times have i heard this.

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    9/5, 12:49pm

    Damian Schloming

    And then I look at my Harvard email account and see that some of my emails have been rewritten

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    9/5, 12:49pm

    Heather Marlowe

    "soften your approach"

    "be more diplomatic"

    omg

    i'm not surprised

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    9/5, 12:50pm

    Damian Schloming

    And then the lady says that next time I talk with her it can be

    On the phone instead

    They want to say I got angry or something I believe

    And they are afraid or something like that

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    9/5, 12:51pm

    Heather Marlowe

    god like you said SHEEPLE are despicable and in the dark

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    9/5, 12:51pm

    Damian Schloming

    And do you know what happened? I accidentally dropped my cell phone and broke it. They know that too I think

    I think based on how a certain email was rewritten it is implied they want to say i was shaking my fists in anger

    An email was re written so what I originally wrote was "i was so scared I left the room with hands shaking violently" and it was changed to "I left the room with violently shaking hands"

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    9/5, 12:54pm

    Heather Marlowe

    of course they do.

    omg

    have you seen the latest naomi wolf oxford debate

    head to head

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    9/5, 12:56pm

    Damian Schloming

    When was it?

    Maybe

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    9/5, 12:56pm

    Heather Marlowe

    week ago

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    9/5, 12:56pm

    Damian Schloming

    I know they are going to lose though

    Not sure

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    9/5, 12:56pm

    Heather Marlowe

    here's the link, i was shocked to see an actual debate of her work. we don't do that in the us anymore

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9vtXiKv3380

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    9/5, 12:57pm

    Damian Schloming

    Now one thing that's true is I'm used to putting up with tons of bull shit and not getting angry so if they say that it's just a lie

    I'll have to watch it later I'm in the car going to go mountain climbing today

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    9/5, 12:58pm

    Heather Marlowe

    oh nice. ok. yes be in nature. it helps my ptsd a lot

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    9/5, 12:59pm

    Damian Schloming

    Oh by the way

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    9/5, 12:59pm

    Heather Marlowe

    yes do you have any draft of the email that has the original email?

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    9/5, 12:59pm

    Damian Schloming

    You know in the end they are going to lose

    They'll do all this bull shit first

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    9/5, 12:59pm

    Heather Marlowe

    yep

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    9/5, 12:59pm

    Damian Schloming

    I might but I'm not sure

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    9/5, 12:59pm

    Heather Marlowe

    TONS AND TONS

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    9/5, 1:00pm

    Damian Schloming

    In a way they are engaging in all this rotten stuff -- but I don't envy them

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    9/5, 1:01pm

    Heather Marlowe

    what mafia ties does harvard have?

    italian?

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    9/5, 1:01pm

    Damian Schloming

    They sort of are stuck in where they are

    Oh I don't know much about the mafia

    Boston is very Catholic

    But you know Harvard is it's own mafia in its own right. And the federal govt is too

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    9/5, 1:03pm

    Heather Marlowe

    omg for sure

    ok i understand what you are saying now

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    9/5, 1:03pm

    Damian Schloming

    See the Italian mafia is weak

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    9/5, 1:03pm

    Heather Marlowe

    the feds FOR SURE

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    9/5, 1:03pm

    Damian Schloming

    The strong mafias -- everyone pretends they don't exist

    Yeah but I have a feeling Obama in the long run is interested in having things work out properly

    Anyway I need to go now

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    9/5, 1:07pm

    Heather Marlowe

    ok me too. have a great climb

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    9/5, 1:07pm

    Damian Schloming

    But anyway with Harvard they might want to say I was "angry" or something but I'm not sure that's what it is

    They are very slippery and imply one thing, hint, imply another thing and so on

    She basically said a bunch of bizarre things and bizarre hints which on their face was gibberish and nonsense but if I try I can "decode" what she might have meant and it's possible to come up with a few different interpretations

    By the way, this is what rape victims talk about when they refer to micro aggressions

    Micro means you can't call them on it easily

    They don't want to commit to anything

    So you never know what their version of reality is -- because there is none

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    9/5, 1:12pm

    Heather Marlowe

    yes!

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    9/5, 1:12pm

    Damian Schloming

    It is never about the truth and always about what they strategically want to claim in the moment

    But they usually want to not commit to any version of reality, so they can wait until they know for sure what's best to pretend is true

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    9/5, 1:13pm

    Heather Marlowe

    yes. it actually has driven into a place of rage many times

    dealing with these "advocates"

    my blood is starting to boil right now actually

    im serious

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    9/5, 1:13pm

    Damian Schloming

    So you have problems with advocates too?

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    9/5, 1:15pm

    Heather Marlowe

    ALL THE FUCKING TIME

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    9/5, 1:15pm

    Damian Schloming

    What do they do?

    Same stuff as to me right

    In my case, Harvard desperately doesn't want me to sue

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    9/5, 1:16pm

    Heather Marlowe

    i just saw one a few weeks ago and she gave me the most microagressive MONOLOGUE

    about how my perceptions about the state of rape victimization is incorrect because there is so much "progress" since she first started working

    and how she felt "sad" for me

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    9/5, 1:17pm

    Damian Schloming

    Yup

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    9/5, 1:17pm

    Heather Marlowe

    and should she contact SFPD for me because she has close ties with them

    and that they "are doing a great job"

    LOLOL

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    9/5, 1:18pm

    Damian Schloming

    $$$$$$$$$ explains it

    Anyway need to run going mountain climbing now

    Later

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    9/5, 1:18pm

    Heather Marlowe

    yep....later

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    9/5, 1:50pm

    Damian Schloming

    Just had my head phones stolen from my car while in the store

    Last night when I went to do laundry a key was ripped from my laptop keyboard

    Nasty

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    Meanwhile, let me copy and paste what I wrote in Naomi Wolf's facebook page today September 22 I believe.

     

    In response to an article with headline titled "Canada's race to the bottom." 

     

    Damian Schloming I sincerely hope, after everything I was put through, that a "race to the bottom" will be the just desserts Harvard will reap, after what they have done. Meanwhile, at least they are starting to get backlash over the sexual assault issue and have actually finally appointed a new title IX coordinator -- who happens to be a man.

    http://www.thecrimson.com/article/2015/9/24/berg-appointed-titleIX-coordinator/

     

     

  • Damian Schloming here. let me see I have a good memory. I ought to repeat in detail some of the things she said. Let me see, I mentioned one issue was a crooked Harvard policeman arranging for me to be banned from setting foot on Harvard campus, and doing what was probably some kind of fraudulent police report in order to somehow justify it, and this was all after I was date rape drugged and driven onto campus under the influence of a date rape drug, and the cop knew it too. She says "I'm not sure if the ban on you setting foot on campus is still there, would you like me to arrange for a meeting with the harvard police so you can talk to them about it? I said "well, yes at some point but not right away, I still have such terrible PTSD and you just sprung the idea on me for the first time now, let me think about it" And then she says in response: "Oh I know just how you feel. I sometimes don't want to open that envelope." -- What the hell does that mean? That's GIBBERISH. Speaking to a cop isn't opening an envelope. Then, with regard to the rape crisis center, she predicted quite accurately that they would gas light me and otherwise not work with me. And what she said was "don't take it personally, you just aren't ready yet." Again, vague vague vague. And then she said it's the violence recovery program at Fenway that was the right one for me to meet. Well, yeah they handle rape, sure, I guess, but I think BARCC does too and I don't see any reason why I should somehow not be "ready yet" to work with BARCC. Unless she is making some kind of hint trying to imply BARCC is insisting I am crazy, or Harvard is. And it is true Harvard suddenly is giving BARCC so much money (only after I started opening up about Harvard's involvement in all the crimes committed against me) that BARCC has now listed Harvard as a community sponsor, and of course Harvard wants to cover it all up by saying I am crazy, I presume, or who knows what. And then, of course, yes she constantly pretended not to understand what I was saying, any time I tried talking about any specific crime I was victim of. Meanwhile, the very name of the Fenway violence recovery program (it's for GLBT violence survivors) allowed both her and BARCC to go and over and over again imply, using linguistic ambiguities, that the real reason I should work with the violence recovery project is that I need to recover from BEING a violent person (or potentially violent and dangerous person) at least. Of course, I have never reacted violently to anything that ever happened to me for 20 years, actually more like never once since I was a kid or early teenager. But that doesn't matter. They like implying I am "potentially violent" or dangerous or stuff like that. In a manner that's as bad as, well, as bad as if they were saying I was potentially a witch. I mean, how can you deny a negative?

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  • Damian Schloming Oh yes and when I first called that lady, now this is ridiculous to the point of being absurd, instead of answering the phone herself she gave it to some other lady who pretended to be a concierge at Gillette stadium in Foxboro, and who said that the owner of the cell phone had left it in the lady's room and she hoped I was the owner of the cell phone, and I said I wasn't. And then I said this was the hotline for the Harvard Rape office so I think it's important that the phone get back to the original owner and what can I do to help -- and the lady then told me I didn't need to do anything, that she knew the owner of the cell phone knew where it was and was going to come get it. And, sure enough, I try calling a few minutes later, and the lady answered and not a concierge. That, I have to say, is bizarre. Then, the second time I call, after my first meeting, she picks up the phone and then immediately says "oh I need to put you on hold, I am getting another call from someone else" and she put me on hold for several minutes and then, when she took me off hold, she said "I usually would have let that go to voice mail, but I decided they were more important than you" or something along those lines (not exact quote, I think she was a bit more ambiguous). And then she said something about the next meeting with me should be only a phone conversation/appointment. Well I don't need to make an appointment with her whereby I plan in advance to simply talk on the phone rather than meet in person. And then it is almost right after that conversation that I then have a conversation with THIS woman -- who has been on my facebook all this time reading so many of my posts, I know she pays attention, for her to out of the blue say "oh you need to soften your approach I am afraid you will kill people who did this to you" all of a sudden like that is very very weird. And then, well I won't but some of the BARCC women were just as ridiculous in their own ways -- there is something about their behavior that isn't bad in a typical way, it's bad in an "over the top absurd" way. In a way so you don't want to describe their behavior as it's so off the wall, people will think YOU are crazy and making it up, rather than that they really behaved so strangely. https://damian-schloming.squarespace.com/conversation.../

    Strange conversation with Cancer Survivor DES and rape victim Judi Beatty of Keller Williams

    I am posting this because it is, well, let's just say this is strange. This is someone on my face book page who has obviously been paying attention to all or many of the things I've written lately. Who now suddenly says "Oh I am afraid you might want to kill everyone who you think harmed you." Which…

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  • Damian Schloming Oh yes, and I left out another thing with the Harvard rape office. Around the time I started emailing them, I was date rape drugged by this man in New Hampshire, well not with ryphenol but he managed to introduce a bit of crystal meth into my system somehow without my knowledge so I ended up sweating profusely for a while day and not being able to sleep and etc., having all the "symptoms." Well, guess what? In my email to Emily Miller, title ix coordinator, since of course PTSD is relevant to rape, I mentioned all the exercise I was getting in new hampshire. and she somehow puts in her response to my email something about enjoying new hampshire but "be careful because it's hot up there" which I took to be a veiled threat that was related to probably knowledge on her part of how I was date rape drugged. Understand so many of these rape offices are in cahoots with and have ties with serial rapists. What it is is, anyone who knows me would understand, I sweat very profusely and it's salty too, lose electrolytes really fast and easily, and that makes crystal meth unusually dangerous for me. At the same time, really hot weather will also have a similar effect, and I always have to be very fussy about stocking up on electrolytes, buying electrolyte tablets from Eastern Mountain Sports, bringing salt and some items that have potassium in them with me ANY time I go for a long hike. Of course, I can't prove it's a veiled threat relating to the Harvard rape office knowing I was date rape drugged and even arranging it for me (though look at all the other crimes Harvard has arranged against me), and I fear pointing out that it was kind of like a microaggression, but at the same time if I just repeat all the different types of veiled threats I have gotten from Harvard, and so on and so forth, it fits an increasingly convincing pattern.

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Damian Schloming and while the Harvard rape office fiddles, and grown adults there behave like bratty children playing in the sandbox, look at what an interesting expose Huffpo is doing on Harvard allied company, Johnson and Johnson. This latest bit is quite interesting:http://highline.huffingtonpost.com/.../chapter-10.html

  • Damian Schloming And, apparently, according to one Heather Marlowe (privately) "they have no room for your narrative because they are playing in the sandbox with your oppressors." -- oh really, Harvard. It is all about kids, is it?

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    Damian Schloming Most Catholic State in the Union, but I guess it's not just the Catholic Church that has a pedophile problem, given what I've been told (or it's been hinted at) by a few individuals,

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[Editted: one more thing the lady from the rape office said was that somehow I can't do anything about what happened at Harvard before because the individuals I had (or may have had) problems with were no longer there, and she also said that "Statute of Limitations" issues applies. Again, that is gibberish.

Meanwhile, it is also true that the crimes that were recently committed against me all were a continuation of various things members of the gay community did to me in this Boston chatroom, all of whom worked closely with gay Harvard students who either knew Harry Lewis, Keryx, his former secretary and Christopher Thorpe, and the man named Michael Guido who went through this charade of dating me, was a computer science guy who did mention something about how he'd use people, would date solely for the purpose of the extremely cruel breakup, and would date solely for monitary reward from third parties. No, wait, it was something along the lines of how on one case he entered a fake relationship with someone he did not care about solely to get a better job that was in the city. And, sure enough, he did get a better job and move after he did to me what he did to me.  So, if Harvard has sponsored or instigated or been involved in arranging for a continuous campaign of harassment, both criminal and non-criminal, against me, so long as it was continuous and some of the incidences were overwhelming to the point where it would take a long time for me to both figure out what was going on, figure out how to deal with it, and have enough evidence or proof that I could take to a lawyer (you can't do anything about something like this until you have amassed enough proof of criminal wrong-doing) there should be no statute of limitations issues. 

Meanwhile, it is also interesting how the woman from the Fenway Violence Recovery program I talked to said something like "you want to get the people who are harassing you now" and I said "well, is what they are doing illegal, how can they get into trouble for it?" and she said "I don't know" and she also then asked, in this skeptical tone "why do you want to take [legal action] now?" when I had already said to her I had tried and been trying to get legal action taken with regard to my situation and crooked cops and corrupt agencies had stonewalled me and intimidated me, and I had terrible PTSD and was afraid so I am only now finally screwing up the courage to take baby steps with regard to taking action. This, however, reminds me of what some people said, Judy Beatty "I am afraid you will try to kill the people you THINK did bad things to you." If the cops deny that they stonewalled me, if all the other agencies deny that they initially began to work with me, even wanted me to submit some documentation, and then once I did, they suddenly refused to talk to me and refused to allow me to forward them any more documentation, particularly of subsequent crimes and harassment (which began piling up), they could go try to claim that it was me who stopped working with them because, I dunno, maybe I had decided I wanted to handle it all in a criminal way instead? I suppose if I had been successfully framed and held, all access to the paper trail cut off, they could try something like that, or if I were killed, of course stuff like that could be claimed. 

Meanwhile I have, for years, certainly made it known that what happened at Harvard and what, later on, gay men involved in the chatroom (who were working with some gay Harvard students) had done was, in my mind, I do believe criminal in some way, and that I was certainly determined to bring them to justice. However, in conjunction with saying all this, I sure made it pretty clear over and over again that that was one of the reason I was always documenting everything and all my conversations on my computer very thoroughly. It is obvious, if you are keeping meticulous records, including way back when at Harvard, also if you eventually work with a lawyer on the matter and email all the records to him with explanations, that you always all along intended to handle things in a legal manner. Now I did suffer a few incidences that appeared to be attempts to try to entrap me, to try to put words in my mouth or bully me into saying things that could be potentially interpreted as me intending to handle things in a criminal manner, Any time anything like that happened, I handled it in a manner that you would if you were quite determined not to let anyone frame you in that manner. Nor would anyone such as myself want to go handle things criminally after having amassed a mountain of evidence proving so much wrong-doing of either a criminal or civil nature. It doesn't make sense. 

All of this, of course, becomes very complicated. Only thing I can say for sure is, what looks most obvious to me is that at Harvard they seemed to want to cover things up or take advantage of me and their fingerprints in this whole matter are unmistakable. I suppose they think they can do this to students because they are Harvard and powerful enough to get away with it? What's funny is how, if they did all this, they didn't have to do it, they just did it because they wanted to, and there was no amount of reasoning with them that could dissuade them from taking the wrong path the way they did. 

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Oh and another thing. Notice that conversation I had with Heather Marlowe where she talks about her blood boiling and how she is seething with rage. That appears to be a reference to an email I wrote (or at least it sounds awfully coincidental that she should use language that reminds me of it) which was intended to be submitted as a humorous parody to the Harvard Lampoon long long ago. Starting with "I am seething with rage, but I am also calm and composed, because I know I will triumph against injustice, this time meted out by the Harvard Math Department. The atrocities that were committed -- the brutality, the wickedness, the sadism! -- are enough to make your blood boil" 

It was actually very funny and very well written. I suppose they could try to claim I wrote it NOT as humor. Meanwhile, I do have to note, WOW, I quoted that from memory without going back through my emails and looking it up. And I bet it's a perfect quote or nearly perfect. So much for anyone trying to say I'm the sort of person who might have forgotten anything. I am not so good with remembering recent stuff in the same way but I think that's more because it's been so painful, there is this habit of doing the equivalent of "averting one's brain/attention" from the abuse which, of course, makes one not go to the trouble to try to recall things as specifically or in as precise detail as I could. 

And then, of course, notice how after that conversation is when I get my headphones stolen. Pretty micro-aggressive. And I can't help but notice how it's all designed to terrorize in a certain way. Though, of course, I've dealt with this and so much worse for years, I am used to it and it bothers me less than it would most people.